You always hear jokes about how pregnant women often becoming more sensitive and how they are bursting into tears at the slightest things. i.e an ant dying, not being able to open a jar of pickles etc. Okay, perhaps not so extreme but pregnant women are often said to be more emotionally wired. Blame the hormones.
I never thought it'd happen to me, cause I'd like to think of myself as a level-headed person and rather impervious to 'kodak moments'. Boy was I wrong.
As I was lying in bed a few minutes ago, after calling my husband, I had the sudden urge to cry. Don't ask me why, cause I myself do not know. I just wanted to cry. I was feeling sad/glum and felt like I should start crying. Go ahead and call me irrational. This isn't the first time. There have been several times where I was overcome by sadness for no reason. I think it happened a couple of nights ago, while I was trying to fall asleep. I suddenly had this uncomfortable feeling and my heart started to ache.
Perhaps there's an underlying issue to be confronted. I don't know. Heck, I even cried when I was watching Idol last week and Kelly Pickler was watching the video of her grandpa.
I do hope I snap out of it. I read that being depressed/anxious/frightened/pissed all the time isn't good for the baby. It makes for a grumpy/anxious baby. I don't want a baby that's always grumpy or anxious. Leave the being grumpy and anxious to mummy and daddy, thank you very much.
I do try to divert my attention to pleasanter things when I do fall into a funk. So far, so good. Perhaps I'm lacking some happy vitamins. Anyone know where I can get some?
Shopping for the baby makes me happy though. So far, we've only gotten clothes for the baby. Some are in Malacca, some are here in Shah Alam. Eventually, all will end up in Malacca, or JB, depending on where I'll be staying during the duration of my confinement.
We've got plenty of onesies now. Not enough, I suspect, but I've decided that we should hold off anymore buying of onesies till after the baby is born and the sex and size has been determined. We'll probably be getting a couple of shirts, long pants, socks and mittens for the baby. That'll be enough for now. Still have to shop for the bigger items. Those will be bought during the next few months I suspect. Before I get too big to move around comfortably.
My feet are hurting a little bit more often now and I can't sit down for long durations without feeling pain in my ankles and back. Ah, the joys of pregnancy.
The husband isn't back from work yet and it's almost 9 p.m. I hope he's all right. I feel like crying again.
Hush! It's not me, It's the hormones.
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