I'm having an 'episode'. I don't know why, or what triggered it but it just happened. In case you're wondering, it's a continuation from yesterdays feelings. But this time, I feel much worse. I'm guessing it's because of a 'certain thing'.
No one knows I feel this way. I had wanted to tell my husband. I didn't know how to say it, so I hugged him from the back while he was washing plates, rested my head against his back and I just said, "yang..". But his reply was not very comforting. He said he was washing plates. I had wanted to continue with, "I'm sad." But got put off by his reply and just walked away. I was close to tears by that time. But tried hard to hold them in. I couldn't be seen crying now can I? I have class after all.
I'm still close to tears. I still haven't told my husband cause he's no where to be found. He might be upstairs. I wouldn't know. I don't think I want to tell him right now cause I might cry. I'll just hold in the tears and be brave. Just for a little while.
Oh woe is me. I'll go wait for my turn now.
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