Today I was reminded of my responsibilities as a wife and how I should pay attention to my husbands needs. Which made me question myself, "Am I a good wife?".
I do not know. I suppose some people might think I could do a better job. I can't judge myself as that would be biased. However, right now, I don't think I'm doing such a great job. I did something stupid today. Hmm.. seems I'm overflowing with idiocy lately.
I managed to hurt someone elses feelings today. What else can go wrong? Oh well, I guess anything that can go wrong, will go wrong.
I'm not feeling great right now. Fact, I'm feeling rather low. When I was younger, I used to imagine ending all 'misery' and just ending my life. Ahh.. Such drama. Well, I don't feel like doing anything stupid so no need to worry. It's very wrong anyway, to take ones life. But I don't know what to do, who to turn to and I feel very alone.
On the bright side, Gillian called me today to ask me how I was doing. Thanks Gi! Love you much.
This post is heading no where, but just felt like vocalizing my feelings.
Oh, and a public apology.
I'm sorry I hurt your feelings by being insensitve and rude. Do forgive my behavior. I'm an ass. A pig. An insensitive cow. I'm sorry. You deserve better. I'm not worthy. I'm sorry.
Sorry my posts have been confusing and depressing. But that's how I feel.
Confused and depressed.
2 comments:
Wow! 3 animals in one. An ass. A cow. A pig.
yep. That's me. Multitalented. =)
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