It's close to twelve and I'm fueling my body with caffeine, again. I told myself I wasn't going to do it today, but I did it anyway. I'm afraid I might fall asleep if I don't drink my stipulated amount of coffee. I need to stay awake to study, you see. This is the only time I am able to study, at night. I can't seem to do it during the day. I get distracted. I actually thought of getting the espresso rhumba from starbucks, but since I'm low on cash and thought it'd be nice to save some money today, I went to 7-Eleven instead to get 2 cans of nescafe. It only costed RM3.20. Which is 3 times cheaper than the rhumba.

I'm thinking of watching a movie tomorrow. The husband doesn't know about it yet. I'll tell him once I've secured the tickets. Hope there are tickets still. Since it's a sunday tomorrow and all that. Crap. Wanted to watch sepet. But it's not showing in Bukit Raja. tsk. I'll ask him later. This Nescafe Mocha is awfully sweet. I don't remember it being this sweet. Good thing the other can is just normal coffee.

I've been thinking. Since no one actually reads my blog, at least that's what I think since no one ever leaves me any messages or comments, I should be able to say anything I want on it. That's good, no? It should be I guess. But it sucks that it's this way. I think, somehow, deep down, I yearn for people to read my blog and invade my space, just a little bit. Ah, I'm just being melodramatic. Blame it on the coffee. People do visit my blog, that much I am sure of. Some people just prefer to lurk, I guess?

Made dinner today with the husband. Baked salmon with a side dish of french beans and tomatoes lightly seasoned with salt, lemon juice and olive oil. I'm not sure how it turned out. Mama said it was all right. Rahim said it was all right. Ayah didn't say anything and Aznin said he didn't quite like it. So, we're kind of divided on that issue. I am not quite sure whether I like it or not. It was, o-kay I guess? But nothing mind blowing about it. The fish was a little too salty from the rock salt. And the fish was a little too big. I'm not sure whether we'll ever be attempting it again. Who knows?

I think I've been eating a little too much. I'm not sure if I'm putting on the pounds or not. I weighed myself a few days back and the scale said 46 kilos. Did I lose a whole kilo?? I'm not going to jump for joy over that. Could be just temporary. Plus, I've decided I'm not going to go crazy over putting on a kilo or two. There are people much more worse off (or is it worst off??) than I. I shall run on the treadmill regularly to maintain a healthy body, that's all. (I have not run for the past 3 days however. I am bad.)

I wish to extend my deepest sympathy to gi, over her loss of her pet hamster, oreo. Sorry to hear that gi. Hope you feel better soon.

I think I shall have to help clean up back room upstairs tomorrow before the contractors come on Monday to work on the windows. (they're old and need to be replaced) I don't want to, but who else can we ask? Can't let mama do it by herself. She's not all that fit and I wouldn't want her to work that hard. So I guess it's up to me and my significant other. Although there are some parties that should actually be doing it instead of us. Alas, those people are away, vacationing somewhere in KL city, leaving us with all the dirty work. C'est la vie.

I want to learn another language. I want to learn a skill. I want a good book to read. I want a new game for my gameboy. I want to reformat my iPod. I want new sheets on my bed. I want a cleaner room. I want to watch a movie. I want to go on a holiday. I want to travel the world. I want to ride on a rollercoaster. I want to ride a horse. I want to visit my friend in Australia. I want to be a better person.

So many wants. Hope I get to work through my list of wants. But right now ...

I NEED to study.

P/S: Congratulations to my darling of a cousin, kak long on her fantastic SPM results. Proud of you kid! Such a smarty-pants. Wishing you luck in your future undertakings, whatever they may be. Have faith!